What should I be thinking? (my uality)?

Wow, this is a tough one. I know you don't believe the whole perfect person thing, but its really is true. I'm a and have be in a relationship for a little less than two years. I'm definitely the "man" in our relationship. However, there are times where she does hold me when we sleep together at night. I love it, she can make me feel safe(more than any guy I've ever dated). I think you just need keep dating, don't give up on either . Keep your options open, unless you decide to stick with one . I guess my best advice for you is to keep looking, I'm sure you will eventually find what/who you are looking for. Good luck, I hope this helps.